The Biatch and the Fag
This is based on a true story.

Once there was a biatch who fell in love with a fag... hahaha! just kidding!

OF COURSE NOT! NEVER!

Okay, back to the story... one day, the biatch finally allowed the fag to talk to her through YM after months of drifting apart (the biatch hated the fag, because the fag did a lot of stupid things that hurt the biatch) hahaha!

here's the complete manuscript... (OMG! Pathetic! I actually kept a copy?! hahaha! copy-paste from the YM message box...)

FAG: how are you?

BIATCH: ...

FAG: gosh.. y do i always get this deadma reply from you?

BIATCH: ...

FAG: yoohoo... i come in peace..

BIATCH: hmmm...

FAG: i miss you... promise!

BIATCH: ...

FAG: i've been reading your blog eversince you sent me the link.

BIATCH: and...

FAG: I just want you to know that I'm happy that you're doing well there with work I just can't take the fact that I'm one of those people... that you wouldn't want to talk to...haay! it's just so hard. but i kinda accepted that na rin... pero i wouldn't stop

BIATCH: you are not one of those people. you are the only one i refuse to talk too.

FAG: haaaaaaaaaaaa! sorry na... puhlssssss...

BIATCH: WHAT ARE YOU SAYING SORRY FOR? the apologies are empty if the reason is not right yah know...

FAG: i know that i may have been insensitive most of the time... i know that in one way or the other i did offend you with things... but, none of them are intentional... i swear... it's just that, sometimes i tend to be selfish... remember when we talked back there in galera... it was such a relief... but, it kinda got off track... i came to realize that i've been doing a lot of things wrong and i need to do the right thing now... which is... try to start anew... impossible may be, but it's all gonna be worth of a try for me... you see, i usually get bothered when i hear things from you... hear say from others... how you hated me and me being kinda indifferent to you...

BIATCH: i think those aren't hearsays... it's true. i hate you.

FAG: i know... that's why...

BIATCH: you don't tend to be selfish. you are selfish

FAG: im not trying to be charming here

BIATCH: and how much i really hate that ur apologizing now

FAG: i just want to say im really very sorry

BIATCH: and not before i left for bkk

FAG: i hope that someday you can accept my apologies.

FAG: i hope that when you get back here, we can see each other and, just like the good old days... oh well, just a bit different... this time far more better

BIATCH: it will never be the good old days. i don't even want you to work for projects in (company name of where she used to work withheld). and what irritated me is that you apologized only after i expressed my dismay to rod and benjie that they are giving u projects...

FAG: hindi naman...

BIATCH: could that be just a plain coincidence... i don't think so

FAG: if only you know how hard it was... from the time you texted me before you decided to leave that afternoon... we were supposed to meet in makati

BIATCH: i felt the insincerity.

FAG: you know i am never good with words... kahit nga sa grammar e... but i really am... sincere... i wouldn't really do this if i am not... i feel like am stupid trying to run after you and ask you to forgive me... but, what the heck...

BIATCH: ha! yah right...

FAG: this is the right thing for me to do... well, may be hard to, but i just hope... hope that someday... i will no longer ask for that same good days... just for me to know that you have forgiven me... will somehow do good... im sorry. for everything i have caused you... for being insensitive, selfish, numb, dumb and whatever you might want to call me... i'll freely accept it

BIATCH: whatever... i honestly don't want to hear from you or anything to do with you. but for some reason dahil magaling ka at nagtrabaho ka for rod, and therefore with (name of the company where the biatch used to work - withheld)... ur still always part of the stories and i totally hate it. why can't you just stay with jobsdb or something or maybe some company where people will not make kwento abt you... i'm not even asking about you! i couldn't care less... but there you are living in the same world before i left. nakakainis. yes i'm mean. i don't want you there.

FAG: i know, heard about that, but i never asked din for it...i thought about it before, i know i will hear something from you. but, i just needed a job for the remaining months of the year

BIATCH: i know... ur such a sucker right? and then you apologize. fuck. had it not been for that i know you would have been deadma.

FAG: (mentions the Biatch's name...), why should we be like this?... why should it be that hard?

BIATCH: we are like this because i'm a bitch and you know it. it's that simple right... you know how mean i can be... so what's with the question? we both know the answer.

FAG: i know... just wanted to do things right... please naman o...

BIATCH: wow... how touching...

- end -

After the conversation, the biatch blocked the fag in her YM list. And they both lived their own lives happily ever after?!

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26.11.04

Santa Baby

Have i been a good girl? Hahaha! Whatever!
By the way, this is in no particular order =)

1. Sony Vaio Notebook (who doesn't want one, right?!)

2. SE P910i - My P800 definitely needs replacement... [sigh]

3. Sleazy, romantic novels from Judith McNaught or Julie Garwood. (Old titles are preferred like Almost Heaven)

4. Prada soft beige leather moon handbag

5. Cool Water for Women by Davidoff (I know, it's not a new product but I still love the smell... refreshing oceanic experience of freshness and floral)

6. The Shu Uemura Perfect Lashes Set contains three eye styling products for beautiful lashes. Step 1) Eyelash Curler gives lashes a perfect professional curl. Step 2) Lash Repair strengthens and treats delicate lashes or used as a primer before mascara for full, thick, shiny lashes. Step 3) Mascara Basic in Black to create beautifully lengthened and defined lashes.

7. Gucci 1451 sunglasses (classic...)

8. Estee Lauder DayWear Plus Multi-Protection Anti-Oxidant Lotion (a miracle product! I swear... it keeps skin perfectly hydrated inside, perfectly matte outside)

9. High Performance Balancing Cleansing Oil, by Shu Uemura (also a real miracle product!)

10. My all-time favorite... Victoria Secret.

I know, it's impossible to get all of these... considering the personalities of my friends and family. So if no one is giving me a gift for Christmas or my birthday, I'll just be buying for myself, as usual.

But hey, these are great gift ideas nonetheless. You might want to consider these items for you loved ones...

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Farewell Freedom
I was chatting with Nathan this morning, and he gave me an idea for this blog and the title as well. Okay, so what's with the title?! First, let me give you a background of how my day is like...

7:00am
Alarm. Continues for the next 45mins or so...

8:00am
I finally get out of bed. Take a bath.

8:45am
Coffee and yosi while preparing to leave the house. Watch some Thai morning programs (they have something like Unang Hirit and Magandang Umaga here too).

9:00am
Leave the house.

9:15am
Open my PC, log-on, check several email accounts, friendster and YM. Yosi.

11:00am
Continue with YM, download some music through BearShare, update my blog or something. Browse the internet.

12:00pm - 1:30pm
Lunch =)

1:30pm
Yosi. Chat with officemates.

2:00pm
Check email. or whatever. continue with YM.

2:30pm
Do some client calls. or just stare at the computer. (or pretend to be really busy)

3:30pm
View some photos... crop, retouch with Photoshop.

4:00pm
Chat with my officemates. Continue browsing the internet.

5:00pm
Fix some stuff... browse through the pile of work on my desk. Check with my Thai officemates our afterwork plan...

6:30pm
Yosi

7:00pm
Leave the office. Go to the mall or something. Dinner. Ice Cream or Beer.
Shopping.

9:00pm
watch DVDs or call friends from the Philippines or Margeaux (in South Africa)

12:00am
SLEEP


Today is the last working day without my boss. Lynne will arrive from her Morocco trip on Sunday. And my gosh, I have tons of work to finish before she arrives!

Most likely, I won't be able to work on my blog as often, or browse friendster or chat in YM. I need to get back to work! Grrrrr.....

3 weeks of total freedom! Hay....
It's about end.

Wish me luck. Hope I finish my work in time.
If I get totally screwed up, then maybe I'll be back in the Philippines for good. 555! Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

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24.11.04

Yosi
Buri (in thai)

How much do I love thee...
let me count the ways?!


Last night, I actually went out in the middle of the night to buy a pack at 7-Eleven (which is actually quite far from my unit, wala kasing sari-sari stores near my place at kung meron man, gabi na mashado). I can sleep off other desires (hmm... wonder what these are?!), but not my nicotine craving.

I need to smoke.

I know (like all the smokers out there) that smoking is dangerous and can cause serious illnesses in the future. And we just don't or can't or won't stop. Sometimes, I tell myself... well it's not that I can't quit. But I just simply don't want to. It keeps me sane. I don't see myself quitting in the near future =)

BTW, for those people who want to visit me here in Thailand, don't forget to buy me two reams. Ang mahal ng yosi dito ha! 55baht per pack! 1baht=P1.5 right now, meaning P82.50 each. Ang daming packs na yun sa pinas ha!

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23.11.04

My Favorite Thai Song
There's nothing that can hurt you
as much as you hurt yourself.
mai mee a-rai ja tam rai ter
dai tao gup ter tam dtua kong ter eng

I want you to ask yourself,
who does your life belong to?
hai ter kit ao eng waa chee-wit
kong ter ben kong krai

There's nothing that can hurt you
if you don't care about it.
mai mee a-rai ja tam rai ter
taa ter mai rup mun maa sai jai

You are hurt by someone only
because you willingly take tha pain
took kao tam rai prow jai ter
baek rup mun eng

This is portion of my favorite Thai song.
You can listen to it:
Kon Hin Kon Nun (English translation: That Stone)
Duh?! What a title...

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22.11.04

Great new look!
Impressive? Super thanks to my high school friend, Jeff (a.k.a. dubai chronicles)! He's now working in the City of Gold. I'm not really sure how he finds time to actually work...considering the "other" stuff like downloads, blog, friendster and our YM afternoon delights with our batchmates...

hmmm... wonder how we do it? 555!
Cheers Jeff!

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21.11.04

Bangkok Gay Pride 2004
November 21 marked the end of the week long celebration with a street parade and party. Here as some pictures. Unfortunately, my Thai officemate forgot to charge the camera battery...

While waiting for the parade, the bars at Silom Soi 4 were already open as early as 3pm =) You'll see here different kinds of gays....













And then the parade...
(hindi na nakayanan ng battery)

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20.11.04

One Lazy Saturday
Normally, my Thai friends and I go out every Friday and Saturday... with no partiular agenda, just wherever our cravings take us. And more often, we end up eating ice cream.

LaraGirl (Lala)


Jojoe (Sahanant)


Kan (Sirikan)


Aekk (Chokchai)

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19.11.04

The Usual Friday
It's was a usual Friday night. Except that we broke the "hi-so" code of conduct. We took pictures! 5555! We went to DISTIL, an ultra "hi-so" place at the 65th Floor of the State Tower at the end of Silom Road, Bangkok.
(Sobrang "hi-so": 290baht when you order 1 glass of Coke, wine in a glass ranges from 400-8,000baht.... 1 glass pa lang yun ha! yan lumalabas tuloy, ang tunay kong anyo... jologs. 5555!)

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18.11.04

Photo Addicts
Once upon a time, a Filipina who love taking pictures of herself moved to the city of smiles, Bangkok. There she met 3 Thais like her...






















Photos taken at iberry, thonglor. (After watching Academy Fantasia --- Thai version of American Idol/ Star in a Million)

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16.11.04

555
Most Filipinos are familiar with 555 as a brand of sardines. But for Thais, it's actually an expression.

Ching ha? [thai, for really?]

Chai [thai for yes]. It's true. I was chatting on the MSN messenger with my officemates the other day when after a few messages, I've been seeing several 555's on the screen. Of course I had to ask... I can't be stupid forever.

Lo and behold, 555! means hahaha! How could that be?

And so they explained to me:

1 - nueng
2 - song
3 - sam
4 - see
5 - ha

And there, my dear friends is the origin of 555. Maybe I'll be using it in the future as well instead of a :-D or LOL or hahaha!

Ewan ko ba... wala talaga sila sa katinuan. Yun lang!

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5.11.04

My "A to Z"
And I don't mean vitamins. To my avid followers (hahaha! as if!).... sorry, but this is just one of those surveys. I can't seem think of anything to write about these days... (well actually, I have something in mind, but I'm not ready to share it for the whole world to read). So for now, it will just be a song or a survey. Enjoy.

A - Age:
26 (yes, I know most of you think I'm way older than 26. I hate you!)

B - Brands usually bought:
Tubby, Anne Klein, DKNY, Gap, Old Navy, Maxxi (nice clothes for big girls like me)

C - Cosmetics:
Oh yes! Honestly, I believe that I don't possess a plain and "natural" beauty. Thank God for Stila, Revlon, Origins, Body Shop, Lancome, L'Oreal, Red Earth, Clinique...

D - Dancing as a career?
I enjoy dancing... but not THAT much!

E - Easiest person to talk to:
Sorry, I can't just mention one....ALL my gay friends and fellow fag hags. If you've been reading my past blogs, you know who they are!

F - Favourite song at the moment:
OUT OF REACH by Gabrielle

G - Gum balls or gummybears:
gummy bears!

H - Hometown:
The Southside of the Metro where all the cute people live

I - Instruments:
ha! I wish!

J - Jungle or Sea-side:
sea-side. I can't imagine myself amidst the lurking creatures of the jungle.

K - Kids:
Gosh. I don't even have a decent relationship... bringing a person into the world is freakin' scary!

L - lefty or righty:
lefty! I'm talented and artistic.

M - Meat or Vegetables:
meat! yes to Atkins! ;-)

N - Number of siblings:
2 sisters and one brother

O - O Town or Plus One:
Ok. I'm stupid. But I don't understand the question.

P - Phobia[s]:
reptiles

Q - Quantity or Quality (for anything):
quality

R - Reason to smile:
well... it's payday week.

S - Song you sang last:
OUT OF REACH :)

T - Time you woke up:
9:30am

U - Unknown fact about me:
Let it remain unknown. But then, is there any? My life is such an open book... and it's most read!

V - Vegetable you hate:
hmmm. ampalaya? basil at times. I never tried okra...

W - Worst habit:
impulsive spending?

X - Xavier or Jean Grey:
Jean Grey

Y - Yolk or Egg White:
oh, I like it scrambled.

Z - Zodiac:
Capricorn

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3.11.04

Alone
By Gabrielle

I've been alone for too long
I've been alone for too long
Did you want me to just welcome you
With open arms
Did you want me to fall at your feet
Falling for your charms
I've been alone for too long
I've been alone for too long
Always looking out for rainbows
That's how I lived my life
Always searching for rainbows
Cos I want colour in my life
You've been away for far too long
And I've been alone for too long
I've been chasing your picture
Around the corners of my mind
But you keep getting farther
Farther every time
Everyday I travel, travel in time
try my best to reach you
I just don't know what I'll find
Everuday I travel
Everyday you lie
Everyday it's harder
Harder to forgive
You've been away for too long
I've been alone for too long
Looking out for shadowsthinking of you
Chasing after shadows
What am I supposed to do?

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1.11.04

Getting to Know Me...
In the past months, email and Friendster were flooded with surveys upon surveys... I'm answering one of them now. hahaha!

1. Complete name? Lara Michell Rivera Lapuz
2. Nickname? Lara, Laragirl
3. What attracts you most? Power and Money
4. What qualities are you looking for in a person? Someone with power and money.
5. Taken? For granted (hahaha!)
6. Have you cheated on someone you love? Nope. Haven't found true love, but yes I've cheated a couple of times...
7. Do you want to get married in the future? Hopefully. Sooner would be good. It's been bugging me for the longest time!
8. Age you hope to be married? A year ago. But I've extended my deadline to another 5 years.
9. What do you think about your self? I am an accomplished urban professional with no one to share my accomplishments.
10. What is your favorite color? Pink. (obvious)
11. Are you loyal? Only to myself.
12. Who is your favorite teacher? Experience
13. Do you think you're good? define good.
14. What time did you get up? 8:20 am
15. If you could eat lunch with one person who would it be? Marc Nelson. Hahaha!
16. Silver or Gold? Oh PLATINUM!
17. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Exorcist the Beginning. Gosh. But movies here in Bangkok are really behind! It's already November and Garfield was just shown last week!
18. What is your favorite TV Show? How pathetic... I don't have a decent cable TV connection. I only have Star Sports, BBC - news! ask me about the war on terror... afghanistan... cambodia... whatever! --- and the rest are Thai! But I really like reality TV like the Amazing Race, Survivor, The Bachelor, Fear Factor... or girl-series like Charmed, Gilmore Girls...
19. What did you have for breakfast? Cornflakes... but most of the time it's just coffee and yosi. or sometimes, a SUPER SIZE BIG MAC MEAL.
20. Who would you hate to be stuck in a room with? no one in particular, but I hope he or she doesn't smell awful.
21. Who inspires you? The "me" that I conceived in my dreams...
22. What is your middle name? Rivera
23. Beach, city or country? Beach, of course!
24. What kind of a car do you drive? I just ride with the Thais or take a cab. (but do you remember the blue Lancer GLXi? kung gusto mo ng shoes... "----" mo si Lara, gusto mo ng car "----" mo si "R---N". and so I got a car. hahaha!)
25. Favorite ice cream? Haagen-Dasz 'Dulce de Leche' and Cornetto Nuggets
26. Butter, plain or salted popcorn? butter...lots of it!
27. Favorite Sandwich? a Big Mac!
28. Drink alcohol? yes, I super miss San Mig Light and Strong Ice!
29. Smoke? yes. It keeps me sane.
30. Drugs? Bangkok pills? That's the closest I can think of right now.
31. Eaten an entire box of oreos? Yup. samahan mo na ng fresh milk
32. Eaten sushi? Yes, but it's not exactly my favorite food.
33. Ever been on stage? Several times. I used to be a theater actress in college.
34. Gone skating? Nope. I can't balance myself. hahaha!
35. Favorite flower? Gerbera!
36. If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you want to be? HOME! hahaha! parang hindi totoo, but honestly....
37. What color is your bathroom? White and someting creamy peach. But I try to make it predominantly pink with my Hello Kitty stuff.
38. Where would you retire to? Maybe Australia or something...
39. Favorite day of the week? Friday
40. What did you do for your last birthday? I was in Australia. It was a pretty boring celebration compared to the ones I had in the Philippines. The most memorable would be the year I turned 25 (I treated my friends to "A")
41. Where were you born? Chinese General Hospital - somewhere in Manila
42. Favorite sport to watch? Diving (men's division) and tennis (esp. when Andy Roddick is playing...)
43. What fabric detergent do you use? ----?
44. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Definitely a night owl. I have high energy level 6pm onwards!
45. Is your hair color natural or colored? colored. I don't even know what my natural hair color is like. I've been abusing my hair for years.... and not just coloring chemicals... even perming!
46. What was the last concert you saw? Jay-R's first major concert at the Music Museum. Hahaha! kadiri, and according to my friend Arvin the night we watched was shown on TV. Nakakahiya... we were all dancing and screaming! and oh my gosh... we were like on the 2nd row, right in the middle.
47. How do you want to die? Something like cancer... I'm a drama queen remember? I want to fight the illness, while my friends cry...
48. Tattoos? I'm thinking of getting one...
49. Believe in yourself? Absolutely. I exude confidence.
50. Things in the past that you regret? NONE.

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